Ever eager and easy to please I always had a clean plate and was not 'finicky' like my brother. I ate up everything and asked for more, much to the delight of the people who fed me. One of the best ways to gain approval from nurturing adults at home and at school was to eat heartily. My relationship to food as a child was characterised by a desire to please others as well as myself. I have been bothered by this self image with varying degrees of intensity since then. On the surface it was a simple observation but I sensed disapproval. After sitting in a hospital cot for 6 weeks and eating up like a good girl I had become plumper. During the noisy family celebration of my return home my uncle drew a before and after picture of me. At 4 years old I had come out of hospital after a 6 week stay. I have an early memory of a sense of shame. I didn't come up with this idea by myself. As long as I can remember I have thought my body to be oversized and unattractive.
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